This piece centers on my relationship with a close friend of mine whom I met at Sarah Lawrence but who no longer goes to college here. As she lives on the West Coast and I’ve always lived on the East Coast, figuring out how to maintain our friendship has been difficult now that it’s long-distance. This piece is about the new distance between us, trying to understand where our relationship was the last time we were both together on campus and trying to reconcile that our relationship will never be the same again, no matter what that looks like, whether we like it or not.
The piece begins with a set of images and a poem I wrote just under them. The images were initially supposed to act as both the title of the piece while being part of it at the same time, but they have ended up being the starting point of this piece, alongside the poem. The placement of the poem’s stanzas took the shape it did because I knew I specifically wanted the fourth stanza to line up with the middle picture, as that’s the mental image that the reader should be conjuring when reading. This first section of my piece serves as an introduction so the viewer has more of an understanding of where we’re starting.
In the creation of this work of art, the piece really started here as I flew out to Portland for my friend’s sister’s wedding. This was the first time I had seen my friend since this past February, so I was anticipating the energy between us would be stronger than it actually ended up being. The journal entries I wrote relay the emotions going through my head at the time. The photos, objects, and receipts are all from this visit. This first chunk is before the wedding, which was the Thursday and Friday of the weekend I visited.
This second section takes place during the wedding, continuing the use of the film photos I was taking and the journal entries I was jotting down during the wedding. Some of the entries in this section are from when I was I was sitting at dinner, hiding in the bathroom stall, and when I was sitting alone outside of the wedding venue. I would also like to note that the crumpled page that can be seen in the first photo is the note my friend wrote her music lyrics for when she sang to her sister for her wedding toast.
This last section is about my post-wedding sentiments and inherently the closure of my piece. They’re reflecting on our relationship as it exists now, the absence between us, and the emotions I’m processing as I’m beginning to realize that I’m witnessing the death of a very important friendship of mine. It is the only conclusion I can seem to find at this point.